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I am moving over to the journal iamdraxia. Please friend me there.
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What song would you choose as the theme song for your life?
I'd probably go with Otep-Perfectly Flawed. Ascension was released at the perfect time for this song, considering the hell I was going through on the inside.

"Perfectly Flawed"

If you do this
If you do this you'll never have a chance to try again.
If you do this you'll never have a chance to try.

It's the same sound
Same sting.
The same collapse
Of every thing.

It's the same slice,
Same blade,
The same lie,
Same ol' vein

My weight
My face
My height
My race
I'm a mistake.

My weight
My face
My height
My race
I'm such a disgrace.

You're perfectly flawed
You're perfectly incomplete
Like cracks in the glass
And faded photographs

You're perfectly flawed
You're perfectly incomplete
Let them come near when
Imperfections will keep you unique

Nothing left to lose, just try again
Nothing left to lose, just try again

Its the same doubt,
The same dream
It's the same sabotage
'cos I'm the enemy

It's the same night
Same day
It's the same parasite,
Feeding on the betrayed.

My weight
My face
My height
My race
I'm a mistake

My weight
My face
My height
My race
I'm such a disgrace

You're perfectly flawed
You're perfectly incomplete
Like cracks in the glass
And faded photographs

You're perfectly flawed
You're perfectly incomplete
A work in progress
Perfection is killing me

A disguise of self-deception
Hides my secrets perfectly
I'm rejecting my reflection
'cos I hate the way it judges me

Don't you do it
You're not even you yet
Don't you do it
You're not even you yet

You're perfectly flawed
You're perfectly incomplete
Like cracks in the glass
And flame full of grass

You're perfectly flawed
You're perfectly incomplete
A work in progress
Perfection is killing me...


Also if I am feeling particularly borderline I really identify with Otep's Invisible.

"Invisible"


Dress like we do,
Speak like we do,
Think like we do.

Obey...

Beneath the cold sun
Watching you walk away
Where my terror runs
In rivers so decayed

I am invisible...
I'm in this mood for days...
Teeth on every wall...
That never go away.

I'm made of blades and flame...
I'm sick and dangerous...
You're my favorite prey
'Cause I hurt the ones I love.


You're so lovely when you cry.
You're so perfect when you lie.
You can be my crucifix,
Hold me up to watch me die.

Can't you see?
I'm invisible...

Beneath the Pagan moon
One more prey dies today.
On sheets of flesh and doom
Shivering in endless shade like criminals...
The stain still remains
And I promise you, it never goes away.

You're so lovely when you cry.
You're so perfect when you lie.
You can be my crucifix,
Hold me up to watch me die.

Behold,
Feast your eyes as the peripherals explode.

Can you see me now?

The ugly will resign
When the young blood eats the light.
And one day,
This pain could save your life.

You're so lovely when you cry.
You're so perfect when you lie.
You can be my crucifix,
Hold me up to watch me die.

Living in the shelter,
Lying here alive...
We're painting submission
Across the shadowed sky...

Fire on the sides,
Burned and bright, has arrived (?)
Lost in flight, on golden molted wings.

Now do you see?

Now do you...

Now do you see?

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You Are a Black Panther
You see through people. You understand others' motives and plans.
You have a knack for predicting the future. You just know what people are going to do.

People are attracted to you. You are naturally able to influence other people's thoughts.
You have the charisma to be a beloved guru or dictator. It's all about how you handle it.
Current Mood:
amused amused
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You Are An INFP
The Idealist

You are a creative person with a great imagination. You enjoy living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close to you.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

In love, you tend to have high (and often unrealistic) standards.
You are very sensitive. You tend to have intense feelings.

At work, you need to do something that expresses your personal values.
You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

How you see yourself: Unselfish, empathetic, and spiritual

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Unrealistic, naive, and weak



*giggles at kina*
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Katie is cutting her two bottom teeth. She cried 80% of the day and didn't nap. :(

I feel so bad because I can't make her feel better.

Baby teething=no sleep for mamma.

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Current Mood:
drained drained
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I'm feeling pretty damn vicious tonight. Is it a full moon?

Cabin fever? Gah.. I wish I had more friends. :(

Current Mood:
aggravated aggravated
Current Music:
traffic on the highway
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As the holiday season draws to a close, you might be feeling a little strapped for cash. Would you ever consider selling one of your organs (bodily organs, that is) if you really needed the money?
Meh. I suppose I could stand to give up a kidney. I've got two good ones. :)
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I am so thankful to have my little girl.



I can't believe how selfish I have been lately. I love her so much.



I wish she would stay this little and innocent forever.

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I am so thankful to have my little girl.



I can't believe how selfish I have been lately. I love her so much.



I wish she would stay this little and innocent forever.

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I'm so godamned stressed,and frustrated I could pull my hair out.

I feel incredibly underappreciated just because I don't have a job. Taking care of katie 24/7 is work.. And I don't get days off.

I hardly sleep, and when I do its broken sleep.

I love her so very much.. But its hard when I do 99.9% of everything for her.

I hate that I'm fat and ugly now too. Ill never ever be beautiful again.

Current Mood:
crappy crappy
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